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Today is my birthday, and as I walked barefoot through a storm, I thought a lot about my life, as tends to happen on birthdays. I realised that, although I may not necessarily love where I am at the moment, I do love the choices which brought me here. I would not change those choices (although I'd plant more trees in my garden if that was possible.)




I also had to acknowledge that there are some choices I've made which haven't been real. They've been reactions, rather than authentic decisions. For example, I've worn certain clothes because they present an image of the kind of woman I admire - which isn't actually the kind of woman I am or even want to be. I'm old enough now to simply want to be myself, whatever that means.

Knitting the Wind has been for years now a reaction to audience opinion, common sense, brand imperatives, and tangled thoughts. I've long wanted something quieter for my online diary. Today, for my birthday, I'm giving myself what I want.




Between the woods and the waters. It actually describes my prosaic reality as well as the secret poem in my heart. It's a woman in a cardigan and white cotton blouse, chiffon skirt, hugging a book of stories and waiting for the storm. I did consider more melodic titles, titles which I'd personally like to click on if I found them in someone else's blogroll, but there's a spirit to this one that feels right for the moment.

I can guarantee everything will change again. That's fine by me, so long as its my true decision to change it.

Where ever you are, and who ever you are, at the beginning of this new year, I hope your feet and your heart got you there out of love and hope - and that you have all you need to stay, or to keep going onward.


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17 comments:

  1. It's a beautiful new name and I'm glad you made the change for yourself. Happy Birthday, dear friend.

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  2. Happy birthday. It's very pretty. xoxo Su

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  3. Happy birthday. It's very pretty. xoxo Su

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  4. Wishing you a very happy birthday Sarah. Does this mean you are abandoning Knitting the Wind and just writing here? Now this layout is back to what I remember your blog looked like, clean and simple. I love this new title and will look forward to seeing how different the content will be, if it changes at all. Have a lovely day.

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    1. Abandon is a strong word, I've just moved my url. The content won't change, and infact all the archives are here. If you click on Knitting the Wind it redirects you here, so its basically the same weblog with a new name. :-)

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  5. I love the new name, and it's a link I would click for sure. I tend to click nature names, hoping to find some quiet beauty, poetry, stories. Wishing you a happy birthday :)

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  6. Birthday blessings to you, Sarah! Lovely new name. It drew me in just as much as Knitting the Wind.

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  7. I celebrate your birthday in my heart, for you have added treasures to my life, i am thankful for you. As you cross this threshold to your new year, i wish you days and nights that bring your heart delight.

    lovely title for your new blog.

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    1. That is so lovely of you, thank you very much.

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  8. Feeling a quiet happiness and...hmmm...relief, I think, for your realizations and the actions you've taken in response. The new name is simple and evocative and, as you wrote, where you are. It comes out often in your writing, doesn't it?

    Barefoot in the storm. Beautiful. Please tell me how to imagine a "chiffon skirt" because I can't quite picture it. Will be sending birthday wishes elsewhere! xo

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    1. Thank you :-) I have sent an email with a picture of a chiffon skirt :-)

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  9. happy birthday love. whatever you name yourself here and however you choose to dress there... i honour you for choosing what feels right and true. i have experienced how exhausting it can be tryng to fill an idea or present an image of myself to the world that doesnt really fit.
    may 2016 be a year full to bursting with glorious things for you
    x

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  10. Beautiful, blog, beautiful you. I am so glad that you are honoring yourself--and us--by letting your true light shine. Happy birthday, my friend.♥

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